Hard to sleep

For most of this week, BLM was away from the lab. He cant really explain why. Well at least not yet. Its not as simple as you think, yet not as complicated as you imagine. Its hard to say whats going on in his mind, heart and soul. All I know is that he cant really focus on his project (me) for the moment.

There something new that happen, something new that develop, it emcompasses the old memories, what a reminder it brings. fear fear fear. blahahaha .

going nuts